Drugs & Alcohol

by Young_kid
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Drugs & Alcohol

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by Young_kid
Ongoing Series - Updated Dec 16, 2017  
 

Drugs and alcohol

great combo ....

Some time my heart gets heavy my body start to shake thas just the anxiety in me see when I get this filling it's not good feel like I'm being lied to I don't want to believe that she would Dame did I fuck up did I lose my girl u know that say karma cam back at u I just hope it's not I kno I would be able to take it is been popping pills wishing I just go at least put me in a coma I don't wat to be here I'm tired of the pane I cause and feel it hurts to much I hate it is thought I was doing every thing right fuck wat did I do wrong.. I I just want to over dose go to sleep and never wake up what ... well they miss me noo I bet they would even know I was going they say I'm the devil child ha how tru Is that ... so much for love in think I'm losing my mind agin fuck man when we'll this drug kik in o well it's only been 10 minutes it's 7:58 wow ..... ok so I feel like she sayd she with family but she has introduced event txt me to see if I'm ok or wat I'm doing and when I tell her she say[[ ok u kno I'm with family]] like am I not family to u I'm just your boyfriend right cus I mean I don't look at it like that I look at it as we're already married I love u more thing I did at the beginning I mean if that how u see me as just your boyfriend and mabye your future husband tell me cus to me it's like u just want to be my girlfriend like wat wife ask another man for money to pay her bills and not think about how her husband well fill in mean to be honest the realy reson I want to go to cali for your birthday is because I was going to ask u to marry me on the Beach but kno idk apart of me wants to say fuck it let her do wat ever she want and thin apart of me say that's going to be your wife that is your wife so be her husband not her boyfriend I'm just tired of bing Hart I just want love.

8:10 I feel the drugs now every thing is slow I'm start drinking o wat I have been for 5 minutes now though 1 is she cheating
2 suld o be scared I don't want to lose her
3 if she is cheating is she fucking him ...
I found a number in her phone I ask who it was she sayd her cuzin when I ask her to prove to me that she not cheating and not lieing she got realy upset I told her to prove to me that I'm bing dum she say idk wat u want me to do .... I'm starting to feel all the pills I took hold on let me light this blunt..............ok I'm back sorry were was I o ya thin I calld the number and she got more mad like you are u getting mad if um your not hiding nothing if there nothing to hide thin y get mad I ask u how u get his number u say he txt u well how did he get your number....this weed got me going it's rainy and thundering I don't feel my Hart my brithing is heavy well this be the end no it can't be it....

LA


I hate the fact that I have to go on snapchat just to see wyd sexy never txt me I have to be the one to moving to la that's wat I want having your own dad tell u his tired of u hart's so much and thin to have your mom tell u if he put your out idk wat u going to do kills me I just won't to live it all and forget it and thin u go to Your mom hous and it's like I don't even exist it's like do u even think about me when your there or are u think about him honestly idk wat to believe 8:30 I kno they say a woman can lose her glow and get it back when she happy it seem like when she not with me she way more happe and I kno I'm not doing it and knowing that in not making u happy I cray in my sleep every night knowing that sumbody eals is making you happen kills me ya I kno u y stay if she cheating right well it's simple I realy love her I can't function with out her things get difficult when she's away it's been 2 days if feel like 5 it's like when your not here nothing is the same ya it was different when u was working cus I was going to see u in like 3hr and thin u get of 2hr after that u com home I haven't eating since u left 8:37 my eyes are getting heavy and it's hard to hold up my phone mmm I wonder wat she doing problem txt him ha u want to know wat hart's the most the fact that she can be all on snapchat but not txt me her husband and be ok with it like I don't get it and it like for sum reson I kno sum thing not right cus when I txt her to see wat she doing it don't even know wat to talk about she one word me like she don't want to talk to me 8:43 I want to go to sleep.... like she so beautiful and is just glowing so much like it's a different glow like u can tell her making her happy I'm crying now because it hart's just filling like this like she not showing me any prof like I realy don't know wat to do I love her I don't want to lose her but it feel like I already have my eyes they Birn as the tears com out mabye I deserve this but I can't take it is want to die..

8:51
I keep going in and out of consciousnes
Idk y but it's ok all I wat is for u to show me show me I'm bing stupid for feeling like this like.Sex isn't the same is true like your thinking of someone or something eals that bring me to ? 3 if she is cheating is she fucking him I hope she not cheating or fucking some one eals I don't think I well tak it very good like the way u smile in your snapchat I've never seen u smile like that before Dame I thought I was doing every thing right he'll sumbody I don't even know told me I was a realy nigga cus I was caring my girl pars and stuff and I'm doing my best to take care of u but it's like I'm fighting for nothing like I already lost the fight .....

 

I want u all to my salf


9:03

I'm selfish
I want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I swear
I want you all to myself
Because I'm selfish, yeah
I want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I swear
I want you all to myself
I swear I'm selfish
I want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I swear
I want you all to myself
Because I'm selfish yea
I want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I want you all to myself

Now that I gotcha
Aye girl
I ain't gon play witchu
Becuz there's a lot of things
That I wanna say to you
Girl, you know you the shit
Balenciagas on ya kicks
Niggas all on ya dick
But we ain't gon trip
Cause I'm not ready for no commitments
Nah, nah
But I swear I hate seeing you wit them
Yeah, yeah
And I know you ain't trynna control me
And I know you're tired of being lonely
I can't help how I feel
I'm just keeping it real
They can't have you girl

Because I'm selfish
Want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I swear
I want you all to myself
Becuz I'm selfish, yea
I want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I swear
I want you all to myself
I swear I'm selfish
I want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I swear
I want you all to myself
Because I'm selfish yea
I want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I want you all to myself

Shawty I'm selfish
Can't help it
You know I get stuck when you
Come around
And them niggas be sick cuz we
Be on some shit
Yeah they know I'm gon
Hold it down
Pull up in the whip
Tell you how I been witcho friends
We gon go to my crib
Have my chef cook up a dinner
Girl you know you fuckin wit a winner
I ain't nothing like these lames i swear
Name a place i could take you there
I'd do anything to make you laugh
And you can have anything just ask
But just know that I'm selfish
And I swear I can't help it
But its all for you
Yea it's all for you

I'm selfish
I want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I swear
I want you all to myself
Because I'm selfish yeah
Yeh
I want you'll to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I swear
I want you all to myself i swear
I'm selfish yeah yeah
I want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I swear
I want you all to myself
Because I'm selfish yeah
I want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I want you all to myself....
Every time I here this song I think of u and the way u look at me when I sing it to u idk 9:10 the last time u txt me was 7:19 I sent u another message after that I know o u seen it cus u got on snapchat I wish all this was over and I kno the truth........ I can't sleep ever Time I try and lay down and close my eyes I think of u abut it's like your not thinking about me idk any more....

10:32
She text me say wyd she a lil drunk the first time she message me she a lil drunk ha.

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